Tenth

In the bible a tenth represents sacrifice. It has been ten years today since we agreed to lay down selfish desires and sacrifice for on another. While neither of us has done this perfectly we tried, for a time. But lately its become all about you. Not about us, or our family. We were meant to choose each other daily and love each other deeply. You stopped choosing us and started choosing you, that's when I began to see I'm still chosen. Chosen by God. I couldn't hear or see this truth when I was constantly being told I didn't matter other than to make you happy. Told I was worthless except for sex and making babies. While I did those things well, that is far from where my worth lies. You see because I am worth more than you can ever know, more than you even will try and imagine. So now I keep my eyes focused on that value that has been placed on me and I will accept nothing less than being treated as a most valuable belonging. I've given all I could to you long enough, now I place my all in Gods hands

Silence

I haven't written on here in a long time. I've been silent. Its not that I had nothing to say, I've had plenty to say. Its not that I was afraid or didn't have time. I've had too many words in my mind often times. So many that I am overwhelmed inside.
Sometimes silence speaks louder than words. Sometimes it screams. Screams what cannot be heard through spoken words. The pain, the struggle, the striving. The things only seen in the depth of the eyes. Only seen by those who take the time to look deep enough to see and listen close enough to hear all that has been said in the silence.